Thursday, April 17, 2008

Thank You

Thanks to everyone for their well wishes. I'm not sure how well I'll do at stringing along sentences here, but my mother in law's death was very sudden and very unexpected. While it must have obviously been her to time to go, I'm not very accepting of that.

It happened last night around 7:15pm. She had gone out to dinner with her husband and mother. When leaving, she suffered a massive heart attack in the parking lot. Thank God it was fast and painless. She most likely didn't know what was happening.

It feels like a train wreck. Like losing my own mother. (If this feels like this, I don't want to know what that would feel like.) We told Ashley late last night when we got home from the hospital. She still hasn't stopped crying. She can't stop thinking about the fact that she'll never see her again. How do I tell my little boy when he gets home from school today that his Grandma is gone? That he'll never see her again? How do I stay strong for him when inside I just want to break?

So, yea. I thought I could do this right now. But it just hurts too much. I'll be back later.


Brandie said...

Take all the time you need. Sometimes writing and sharing can help, but not if you're not ready for it yet.

I think the hardest part of any of this is telling the children.

I really do feel for you, but I don't have much to say that can help right now ... there is nothing to be said right now, except how very sorry I am.

maggie said...

(((hugs))) Lynda, I'm just so sorry. It's OK not to feel strong when something so devastating and shocking and sad has happened, especially so suddenly that it probably seems kind of surreal. And it's OK for your kids to see that, too. In fact, it's more than OK. Just hold close to each other for support and know that it's normal for it to hurt like hell right now (and even sometimes just feel numb). (((hugs)))

Tasina said...

Oh Lynda I'm so sorry. I lost my mother in law last October. My heart goes out to you and your family. *big big hug*

MamaFlo said...

My Love & Hugs are going your way too Lynda, for you and your family. I'm sorry for the loss I'm certain you will all endure.