Thursday, December 04, 2008

One Year, And A Life Time Ahead

A year ago today, I embarked on a life long journey. I became a nonsmoker. So many times I had tried to stop smoking and had failed. This time was different. This time I had an army of supporters - family and friends - both online and off. This time I had Chantix, my miracle drug. The drug that helped me to finally kick the habit. One year - the longest I've ever been able to quit in my 12 years of smoking.

Besides taking Chantix, the one other major reason why I believe I have been so successful with this quit is because my husband quit as well. We stuck in there together and are all that more successful because of it. His one year anniversary will be next Wednesday.

It's amazing how great I feel today. I can take a deep breath and not feel like my lungs are going to explode. I will never miss smelling like an ashtray - and kidding myself when I thought that spraying myself with a yummy smelling spray could hide that smell.

I no longer feel the guilt that I use to feel when I thought of the years I was robbing myself of. The years that I might not have had if I continued to be a smoker. The years of my children's (and grandchildren's) lives that I might have shorted myself of.

Tonight I asked my daughter, who was the one that was always on me to quit, if she knew what tomorrow was and she had no idea. Another person might have been disappointed, but I was glad that she had no idea what I was talking about. I was glad because cigarettes are so far from her life now that it doesn't even register to her anymore. Glad because by quitting, I have probably made it more likely that she will never pick up a cigarette herself.

I did it! And I will continue to do it - for myself and for my family.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so proud of you and Bret, I can't begin to explain it. Congrats to both of you!

maggie said...

Oh my gosh, wow and congrats, Lynda! To both of you. You've inspired me to keep going so many times, and I'm just thrilled for you. It's so worth the effort, isn't it?

Mz Diva said...

Congratulations Lynda!

It has been wonderful to see members of our Chantix blogging group make a year! Tell your husband congratulations and I hope you both do something nice to celebrate! That is so awesome that your kids do not really even remember! Quitting rocks!!! Even though I want to pick up from time to time, I do not know if I would ever be able to quit again! Nicotine is such a sneaky, evil and powerful drug. I have a level of respect for its power that I do not want to forget how strung out on that stuff I was.

Ah, now if I could lose another 20 pounds!
Diva

MamaFlo said...

Lynda, I'm so sorry I missed your anniversary, please accept my apologies and my CONGRATULATIONS on ONE YEAR QUIT!!